He better not be a candy coated misery.

Hi! Omg, it's a new year, and I still haven't put up my blog from Christmas yet. Lol. Oh well. :-D But anyway,

YEEEEEAH.

I still like Jay. I'm taking everything slow right now. I mean, I'm not like, forcing myself to slow myself down with him, but it's coming naturally, which is a good thing. I'm not obsessed with him or anything. It's a cute crush. :-) With me, it's like, when I like a guy and I get too obsessive, it's only for a short period of time. But, I have a feeling I'm gonna like Jay for quite a while. Good gosh, he's so handsome. He smiled at me a few times. Haha, I remember this one morning, me, Jess and Jocelyn were hanging out near the 800 building, and then when the bell rang, Jay was heading to his class from the basketball court, and he smiled at me, and I was getting all giddy and stuff. Haha! And I couldn't stop smiling when I got to Biology class. I was even smiling at my book! Lmao. He makes my heart melt, and damn it, I can't help it. Maria told me he's the sweetest guy ever. You can tell he is, but just because he's sweet, doesn't mean he'll have the same feelings toward me. Well, I'll just see what happens the next time he smile at me. Maybe I'll even start a conversation. :-)

Peace. <3

You make my heart sting.

Christmas, ya'll. Christmas is always sooo hectic. This year, it's even more hectic, since I'm involved in the gift buying thing. I went Christmas shopping about 5 times already. Maybe even more. It was so hard trying to buy my mom something, but yeah. I got her gift last night, and I feel bad, cause it's just a butterfly hairclip from Claire's. :-( Sucks. But anyway, I got two gifts from my parents! It's so nice, since they gave like, almost everyone in our family 100 bucks each, and they still gave us gifts. :-D I love them.

But yeah, I slept at Frida's house on Tuesday, and it was whatever. Not as fun as I thought it would be, but I guess it was okay. Okay, I don't know what else to say. PEACE.

Oh! I forgot to say, I hate that everyone is stressing and in a bad mood because of Christmas shopping. Everyone's supposed to be in the Holiday spirit. Humph.

Okay.

Bye for real. Haha.

<3

Short one.

I'm listening to Vixen at the moment, and they're amazing. :-) Anyway, hello! I'm sorta bored, and I wanna blog. Winter Break started! Whoo hooo! I'm gonna have to go Christmas shopping again for my mom tomorrow, because she's the last person I need. Omg, I can't wait to see what my sisters got me. Especially Helen. Well, she didn't exactly got me anything yet, but I wonder what she's planning to get me. I got her this thing, (which I won't say what it is, because she might be reading this) and I know she'll LOVE it. I was so happy when I saw her. I was like, 'Okay. This is PERFECT!'. And yeah, yadda, yadda, yadda. I'm gonna stop now. Bye!

<3

Continued from last blog...

Haha, I was supposed to edit the other blog, but I messed up, and it ended up having two videos of 'The Runaways' movie trailer. Oh well. (: But, anyway, hello! I went to Target yesterday to buy Rebecca something for her Christmas present, since I was her Secret Santa. All I bought her was this blue dragon stuffed animal thing, a green little monster plushie, and candy. She liked it so much! I'm so glad she did. :-) It was all put together in a Santa Claus box with a silver bow on top. It was all last minute, but everything turned out dandy. :) I had a pretty good day today. Oh, and Jocelyn was my Secret Santa, and she gave me a present, (which I'm DYING to find out what it is)

Any, as I was walking to my bus, the fucking creepy ass bus driver saw me with the present, then all of a sudden he fucking tells me to wait next to him, then when everybody got into the bus, he's like, 'So, what's up with the present?'. And, I'm thinking, 'WTF. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME, CREEP.' And, I said, 'What?' in a really attitude-y, sassy way. :-) And he says, 'So, is it your birthday or something, or is it for Christmas?'. And I answered, again, all attitude-y and sassy, 'No'. And, I just gave him a like, get-the-fuck-away-from-me-before-I-bust-your-face type look. :-) Then he said, I can go in the bus. I WAS SO FUCKING CREEPED OUT AFTERWARDS. I still am, actually! Like, why the fuck does he wanna talk to me?! Why couldn't he talked to other girls?! EWWWWWWWWWWWW! I'm soo fucking disgusted, I'm gonna stop this blog right here.

BYE.

Btw, I miss Jay, my lover boy. <3

IT'S HERE! IT'S FINALLY HEREEE!

OMFG!! The trailer for 'The Runaways' movie is HERE! When I first saw it, I was clapping and squeezing my hands so hard they were turning beet red, squealing like a piggy, and jumping! I've never been so happy about a movie EVER. It's soo fucking amazing, and, to be honest, when I started getting into The Runaways, I had no idea that, at the time, they were filming a movie about them. Okay, blah, blah, whatevs! HERE'S THE TRAILER!

WARNING: This may be too amazing for the human eyes. :)

Mood swings, swinging in the gloomy wind.

Hi. *sigh* So, where do we begin? I hate it when, one moment of my life is fantastic, and everything's dandy, then it all goes down hill. Then it's back to everything being fantastic. Well, scratch that. I don't hate it, it's just really hard to keep up with. But anyway, yeah. Like, you know how I said I like this guy name Jay, right? Well, I still do, but, I'm telling myself I can't anymore. Cause I don't wanna suffer a heartache cause of him, and fooling myself into thinking he likes me. It's always the same story, and it just hurts. I always feel like a failure. But, eh. What the hell can I do? I can't do anything. I just have to live with it.

And, on top of that, I miss Lyza more than anything. I just miss her voice, her smile, everything. It sucks so much that she lives in another city. And, I feel bad too, cause I don't call her, or go on AIM, because I either forget, or I'm too tired. It sucks, dude. Hopefully, during Winter Break, we can hang out. Even though she made new friends, and I've made new friends, I still see her as my number one best friend. I'm so thankful to have her, and she's thankful to have me. You see, nothing is ever perfect. We have this great friendship, but what's wrong is that, she lives in another city, and doesn't come down here often. It sucks. But, like my stupid love life, I have to deal with, and live on to know that, I'll be happy in the end. I'm just going through rough patches.

So yeah. That's what I wanted to write, since it's been in my mind for the past few days, that really brought my emotions down.

Alright. I'm gonna go.

Ttyl. <3

My, my, my! Sorry no updates lately. :/

I know, I know. I haven't updated this in FOREVER.

I'm lazy to write everything out, so I'll just write everything out that has happened in a bullet style. :)

- Thanksgiving. What a wonderful day that was. Everyone came over, except Frida, but it was a really fun night.

- School. I'm doing sorta okay. My grades aren't great, but they're not terrible either.

- Boys. I figured Daniel was the biggest dick in the universe. I moved on, I'm not hurt. I just know I'm better and more mature than he is. :) Oh, and there's a new guy in town, well, in my world, that is. And, he isn't exactly new either. Lol. He's sooo cute. He takes me bus, and yeeah. Despite him being a junior, everything is swell with him. I believe he's my dream guy, no doubt.

- Christmas shopping. Yup! My first year to buy people presents. I'm so happy with all I got. I still need a few more things, for Helen, my parents, and Rebecca. :D We're doing a secret Santa thing, and it's pretty fun.

And yeah, I know I'm missing like, half the things I wanted to say, but I'm not really in the mood to think about it, and I'm kinda lazy. It's a Sunday, and I don't feel like doing much.

Alrighty,

I promise I'll update this before Christmas.

Peace. <3