You make my heart sting.

Christmas, ya'll. Christmas is always sooo hectic. This year, it's even more hectic, since I'm involved in the gift buying thing. I went Christmas shopping about 5 times already. Maybe even more. It was so hard trying to buy my mom something, but yeah. I got her gift last night, and I feel bad, cause it's just a butterfly hairclip from Claire's. :-( Sucks. But anyway, I got two gifts from my parents! It's so nice, since they gave like, almost everyone in our family 100 bucks each, and they still gave us gifts. :-D I love them.

But yeah, I slept at Frida's house on Tuesday, and it was whatever. Not as fun as I thought it would be, but I guess it was okay. Okay, I don't know what else to say. PEACE.

Oh! I forgot to say, I hate that everyone is stressing and in a bad mood because of Christmas shopping. Everyone's supposed to be in the Holiday spirit. Humph.

Okay.

Bye for real. Haha.

<3

Short one.

I'm listening to Vixen at the moment, and they're amazing. :-) Anyway, hello! I'm sorta bored, and I wanna blog. Winter Break started! Whoo hooo! I'm gonna have to go Christmas shopping again for my mom tomorrow, because she's the last person I need. Omg, I can't wait to see what my sisters got me. Especially Helen. Well, she didn't exactly got me anything yet, but I wonder what she's planning to get me. I got her this thing, (which I won't say what it is, because she might be reading this) and I know she'll LOVE it. I was so happy when I saw her. I was like, 'Okay. This is PERFECT!'. And yeah, yadda, yadda, yadda. I'm gonna stop now. Bye!

<3

Continued from last blog...

Haha, I was supposed to edit the other blog, but I messed up, and it ended up having two videos of 'The Runaways' movie trailer. Oh well. (: But, anyway, hello! I went to Target yesterday to buy Rebecca something for her Christmas present, since I was her Secret Santa. All I bought her was this blue dragon stuffed animal thing, a green little monster plushie, and candy. She liked it so much! I'm so glad she did. :-) It was all put together in a Santa Claus box with a silver bow on top. It was all last minute, but everything turned out dandy. :) I had a pretty good day today. Oh, and Jocelyn was my Secret Santa, and she gave me a present, (which I'm DYING to find out what it is)

Any, as I was walking to my bus, the fucking creepy ass bus driver saw me with the present, then all of a sudden he fucking tells me to wait next to him, then when everybody got into the bus, he's like, 'So, what's up with the present?'. And, I'm thinking, 'WTF. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME, CREEP.' And, I said, 'What?' in a really attitude-y, sassy way. :-) And he says, 'So, is it your birthday or something, or is it for Christmas?'. And I answered, again, all attitude-y and sassy, 'No'. And, I just gave him a like, get-the-fuck-away-from-me-before-I-bust-your-face type look. :-) Then he said, I can go in the bus. I WAS SO FUCKING CREEPED OUT AFTERWARDS. I still am, actually! Like, why the fuck does he wanna talk to me?! Why couldn't he talked to other girls?! EWWWWWWWWWWWW! I'm soo fucking disgusted, I'm gonna stop this blog right here.

BYE.

Btw, I miss Jay, my lover boy. <3

IT'S HERE! IT'S FINALLY HEREEE!

OMFG!! The trailer for 'The Runaways' movie is HERE! When I first saw it, I was clapping and squeezing my hands so hard they were turning beet red, squealing like a piggy, and jumping! I've never been so happy about a movie EVER. It's soo fucking amazing, and, to be honest, when I started getting into The Runaways, I had no idea that, at the time, they were filming a movie about them. Okay, blah, blah, whatevs! HERE'S THE TRAILER!

WARNING: This may be too amazing for the human eyes. :)

Mood swings, swinging in the gloomy wind.

Hi. *sigh* So, where do we begin? I hate it when, one moment of my life is fantastic, and everything's dandy, then it all goes down hill. Then it's back to everything being fantastic. Well, scratch that. I don't hate it, it's just really hard to keep up with. But anyway, yeah. Like, you know how I said I like this guy name Jay, right? Well, I still do, but, I'm telling myself I can't anymore. Cause I don't wanna suffer a heartache cause of him, and fooling myself into thinking he likes me. It's always the same story, and it just hurts. I always feel like a failure. But, eh. What the hell can I do? I can't do anything. I just have to live with it.

And, on top of that, I miss Lyza more than anything. I just miss her voice, her smile, everything. It sucks so much that she lives in another city. And, I feel bad too, cause I don't call her, or go on AIM, because I either forget, or I'm too tired. It sucks, dude. Hopefully, during Winter Break, we can hang out. Even though she made new friends, and I've made new friends, I still see her as my number one best friend. I'm so thankful to have her, and she's thankful to have me. You see, nothing is ever perfect. We have this great friendship, but what's wrong is that, she lives in another city, and doesn't come down here often. It sucks. But, like my stupid love life, I have to deal with, and live on to know that, I'll be happy in the end. I'm just going through rough patches.

So yeah. That's what I wanted to write, since it's been in my mind for the past few days, that really brought my emotions down.

Alright. I'm gonna go.

Ttyl. <3

My, my, my! Sorry no updates lately. :/

I know, I know. I haven't updated this in FOREVER.

I'm lazy to write everything out, so I'll just write everything out that has happened in a bullet style. :)

- Thanksgiving. What a wonderful day that was. Everyone came over, except Frida, but it was a really fun night.

- School. I'm doing sorta okay. My grades aren't great, but they're not terrible either.

- Boys. I figured Daniel was the biggest dick in the universe. I moved on, I'm not hurt. I just know I'm better and more mature than he is. :) Oh, and there's a new guy in town, well, in my world, that is. And, he isn't exactly new either. Lol. He's sooo cute. He takes me bus, and yeeah. Despite him being a junior, everything is swell with him. I believe he's my dream guy, no doubt.

- Christmas shopping. Yup! My first year to buy people presents. I'm so happy with all I got. I still need a few more things, for Helen, my parents, and Rebecca. :D We're doing a secret Santa thing, and it's pretty fun.

And yeah, I know I'm missing like, half the things I wanted to say, but I'm not really in the mood to think about it, and I'm kinda lazy. It's a Sunday, and I don't feel like doing much.

Alrighty,

I promise I'll update this before Christmas.

Peace. <3

I'm living on the edge of a broken heart.

Hi, you. You as in person reading this. :) I'm so bored, so I'm just gonna write what I feel like. Cause usually when I blog, I always feel the need to write everything in order, and requires a lot of thinking. Lol. And I'm too lazy for that. So, I'm gonna write whatever comes across my mind, which is the movie, The Notebook. Let me tell you, I am in LOVE. This is an incredible movie. Almost as incredible as Titanic. Basically, I think the movie is quite similar. You got, Noah from The Notebook, and Jack from Titanic, who's the poor guys going after a rich, upper class girl. And, the young girls mothers aren't letting them see the guys. And the setting is in the early 1900s. AND, towards the end, death gets involved with the characters. But, oh well. Both are incredible, so I'm not complaining. :) But, I do have to say, although I love Titanic, and it's my all time favorite movie, The Notebook had me bawling my eyes out. And, of course, I cried to Titanic too, but omg. The Notebook affected me a lot more, cause it was about teenage romance-ish? Haha. But, that definitely, made me think about myself. I mean, the thought of a summer romance, and falling deeply in love at a young age, really makes me sad, cause I don't have that. And, probably one in every three girls at my school is in a relationship. I feel almost left out, cause, here I am, blogging (which like, barely anybody my age does) and I don't have anything else to do in my life. Except, go to school, come home, go online, sleep, eat, etc. All the same routines over and over. I need something new. I need to find a guy, so I can share these things with. I mean, I have all my close girlfriends, but I've literally been around girls all my life, and I need a male figure to be part of it. There's definitely been those nights, where I'm hugging my pillow tight to, imagining there's someone there to hug me back. And, it's not like, I have super low self esteem or anything. I just need someone there, and share a relationship with. Also, I don't understand why I can't get guys. I mean, most likely, it's cause of my weight, but personally, I think I'm really pretty for a chubby girl. Maybe, some guys who see me, may think I am pretty, but it's my weight that's stopping them for thinking I'm attractive, you know? It's sad, but my day and guy would come along. I know it will.

Ugh.

Okay. I'm gonna finish this probably like, in a thousand days. Haha.

Peace. <3

G.N.O., drowning, and cute boys... oh my!

Sooo, what's new? (; I know I haven't update this in a long time, but it was because I was focusing on school and shiz. And, like, laziness, apparently. Haha. I don't know where to start, cause I don't remember the last time I updated this, but whatever. I'll just go on with what I know from the top of my head.

Like, last week, I went to Target and threw a bitch fit cause my mom told me she was gonna buy me an iPod Touch, but she ended up saying she'll get it for me on Christmas instead. I was soo mad. Not really cause I didn't get my iPod, but she lied. Eh. Whatevs.

Hmmm, let me think of some other things. Oh yeah! There's a really cute guy that takes my bus and his name is Jay. :] He's sooo cute! I mean, I always thought he was cute, but I didn't really completely realized it till now. He has curly hair, and plays basketball. And, that means he's an athlete. And in my point of view, all athletes are fucking dicks, so I'm not taking it any further than just a crush with this one. (:

I went to Del Amo Mall like, last Sunday, and I bought Helen this Twilight key chain thing, with Edward Cullen on it. I was so proud of myself for buying it for her. Lol. I usually don't really spend my money on other people, cause I'm selfish like that, but where I bought it, which was this AMAZING gift store called Aahs, there was a HUUUUUUGE Twilight section, and I couldn't resist not buying Helen anything, cause she's so into it.

Okay, let's talk about school. I'm doing well, I think. OMG! As of November 13th, today, (it's Friday the 13th!) I faced my fears today(: We're swimming in PE, and a part of our finals, was to swim to the deep end. I was TERRIFIED. Like, my heart was beating so fast, and I was a nervous wreck. Lol. But at the same time, I was really excited. So, one part we had to do was, swim from the shallow end to the deep end. And, as I was on the edge of the shallow end, my heart was beating sooo fast. Like, I was nervous. Then, when Mr. Frederickson cued me to go, I just pushed in, didn't think about the water, and just swam, and sure enough I made it. :) The next part, was to test if we can jump in the deep end, and come back to the surface calm and relaxed. Again, I was even more terrified. The thought of just jumping in really deep water scares the living hell out of me. I honestly thought I was never gonna come up to surface if I jumped in. But when I did, it was really cool. Like, it wasn't really scary. I just jumped, I sank, rose up the surface calmly. It was all fun, but the hardest part for me, was the part where as you get to the surface and you have to start swimming. That was hard for me, but eventually I got through with it, and it was fun. (: The other part to the finals was, jumping from the FREAKING DIVING BOARD!, and then rising up to surface and swimming to the shallow end. I was so terrified, again. I had Susan do it first, cause I just wasn't exactly ready to that, and when I saw her did it, I was thinking, 'Okay, I can do this'. Alright, so I'm walking on the diving board, and as I get closer and closer to the end, it starts wobbling, like crazy. I was soo freaking scared! Then I look over to the other teacher, and then I look at Carlos, and he gives me a thumbs up. Lol. So, I felt confident for that, then after Susan swam over to the shallow end, it was my turn. I jumped, splashed into the pool, and it was just like the jumping test, just that I sank lower. Then, I swam up to surface, and swam away. I was so proud of myself! Then, when me and Susan was in the shallow end, Mr. Frederickson says, 'Good job, Ms. San!'. And that made me feel even better! Today was a good PE day. I'm kinda sad that today is the last swimming day, cause the few last days of swimming, was when I started to really enjoy it. But, now, we have to do regular PE. :p

Omg! The movie Precious is out, and we're watching it tomorrow!! Me, Lisa, Frida, Helen, and possibly Dina, that is! I can't wait! :D I love girls night outs. It's always so much fun. (: My mom gave me 30 bucks, so we'll have some extra money for like, food and stuff. I want Dina to take my dad's car. That would be fucking HILARIOUS! :] Dina driving a big fat van that looks like a killer whale. Lmaooo. Whoo, planning that was hard, though. We had to get everything right. First, with Lisa, then Linda, then ask money from my mom, then now my dad. Jeez, it was hard work, but I don't want no drama on my girls night out! And I'm sure everyone else doesn't want to either. :)

Okay. I'm getting tired. This was a long blog.

Sorry.

Ttyl.

Peace. <3

Love the Devil that's in your smile.

Hi. Wednesday was a GREAT-TASTIC day! Like, for real. Okay, I'm gonna write about it now. :)

So, my day started off as usual. When I got to school, I was like, all jittery and stuff with Jess. It was the weirdest thing ever. Lol. I was scaring myself. But in a funny way. Art class was fun too. I drew a skeleton, and the theme was an 80's rock fanatic which died at a really young age due to an over dose. It was awesome. I didn't name the skeleton, but it was a she, although she kinda looks like a guy. Haha. Well, back in the 80's, you sometimes couldn't tell a guy from a girl apart. Anyway, P.E. was really fun. I swam, and my trick to not be negative about swimming is, laugh at everything and be silly when you're in the pool. It helps! Sounds really weird, but it works for me. Then, I eventually start to enjoy myself and have a great time. Lunch was fun too. Everyone thought that Bernardino had a crush on Toni, but he then tells me he doesn't like her. He was like all chill about it too. So, of course I believe him. :) I was all happy to like, hook them up too! Lol. Oh well. I think Toni liked Bernardino, cause she was kinda all bashful and blushing when she was near him. And, so History class was okay. It's never really fun in that class. Then I went home, etc.

So I get home, and I see Linda's car there, and when I get inside the house, Frida and Kaylyn was there. I was soo happy! Cause I miss Kay so bad! (: She was all happy to see me too. Lol. She started running around and stuff then she jumped into my arm. Here's the thing, when me and Kaylyn first see each other, we're best friends, but as soon as the day goes on, and she gets brattier, we're enemies. Haha!

Then, Frida tells me we were gonna go to the bank cause she was trying to open up her own bank account. So, we get to the bank, and we waited for like, 30 minutes at the most. Then this man comes out, and he asks Frida all these questions, blah, blah, blah. In the end, Frida couldn't get her own account, so we went to Target. Btw, the whole time, I was STARVING! I was soo hungry, cause I didn't even have time to eat, cause right when I came home, Frida said we're going to the bank. Anyway, we get to Target, and look at all the clothes, shoes, etc. Man, I love Target! Like, for real. That place is awesome. Cute ass clothes and shoes, and just the best things ever. Unlike dumbass Wal-Mart. LOL! Anyway, while we were at the shoe aisle, I suggested we stay for a while and 'absorb' Target. Like, really take our time, and look through everything, cause it seems like, every time we go there, we always seem like we're in a freaking rush or something. Oh! I forgot to say, Linda had an interview this day, and she was wearing heels, and it was hurting her feet, so she walked barefoot around Target this whole time. :) LMFAO. Anyway, when we were in the toy aisle, I saw this Twilight: New Moon Board Game, and I instantly thought of Helen. I'm soo getting her that for Christmas. The girl is HOOKED onto Twilight. Lol. I created a monster when I showed her the movie! Now every time she sees that commercial for that one car with Robert Pattinson on it, she goes nuts. She's gonna become one of those crazy Twilight FANS!!! NOOO!! Oh well. (: I'll just let her be. Oh, and while I was looking at the board game, Kay somehow fell and she was all crying and stuff. Later, we went to the Electronics aisle, and I saw the iTouch, and I can NOT wait to get it. (: My mom says we're gonna go to Target on Saturday. I hope that means she's gonna get me the iTouch! :D :D :D

OKAY. Back on track. So, after looking around and stuff, we left. Then, I realized I was still hungry after eating popcorn and a slushee Frida bought for me, and I suggested we go to Linda's house, cause I heard she made tacos, and I was in the mood for some tacos! :) So, we went home, to pick up Helen, then we went to Linda's house. It was fun there. I helped cook the tacos, etc. We stayed there from like, 4:30 to 9 at night. That night was fun!

Then Frida had to leave at 10, so they dropped me off at home, and Helen, and Dina went to drop Frida and Kay off. Dina didn't want me to go, cause she said I'm annoying in the car, and she doesn't wanna stay with me while riding home. Haha! Bitch. :) Anyway, so that kinda wraps this whole story up. I know I rambled and went off topic alot, but I'm tired, and I'm gonna go to bed now.

Good night. <3

Halloween!

Omg. Halloween last night was so fun! I was myself, just from the 80's. And, okay, well, I'll just start from the beginning of the story.

So, on Saturday, I woke up happy. =) For the past like, 3 years, I haven't been excited about Halloween until this year. Maybe it was cause I knew my costume was gonna be cute. Ha. Anyway, so fast forward to when I'm in the downstairs room with my mom and Helen. Helen freaking told me she didn't want to go, because she doesn't have a costume. So, I'm like, trying my hardest to persuade her to go, but it didn't seem to work. Then we went in my room where we watched Twilight and I really persuaded Helen to come trick or treating with us. She said she still didn't know what to be. So, I suggested she be Bella Swan, since I got her hooked onto Twilight. She said no, and I kinda gave up. And what was weird, was that, in the back of my mind I knew she was gonna go, and she was gonna be some type of girl from the 70's, because Helen went through a little phase in the past where she wanted to dress boho-hippie type. And, when I was at Goodwill on Monday last week, I saw all these 70's clothes, and I instantly thought of Helen. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that, I knew Helen was gonna be something from the 70's era.

Anyway, Helen asked my mom for money so we can go find a costume for her, and my mom gave us 20 bucks. Intentionally, the money was for Helen alone, but her knowing that I needed a few more pieces to my costume, she split it in half. :) That was nice of her, but I think she split it in half, cause she didn't have the spirit to go costume shopping. Ha. So, what I needed was leg warmers, tights (since I couldn't find mine), big, bold, colorful, cheap plastic jewelry and maybe a few small clip on colorful hair extensions.

Linda came to pick us up with George, and we were supposed to go to this Halloween store, but they didn't put one up this year. So, I suggested we go to the 99 cents only store. =) I haven't been there in a while, and sometimes, you can find some good stuff, and EVERYTHING is a dollar in that store! It's quite awesome. Lmaoo.

So we get there, and omg. They had everything I needed! I found tights, a gold belt, blue and green eyeliner, crazy bright hot pink blush and cheap gold jewelry. It was awesome! I didn't think that I would find everything I needed there. But, yeah. And I spent only like 8 bucks! I felt cool. Lol. And, Helen didn't find anything. So we went to Goodwill, cause I suggested she be a hippie or something. Then when we get there, we looked through the dresses, and she tried on a few, and none was right until I found this one dress. It was perfect! I don't know how to explain it, but it's beautiful. It fit Helen so well. And, when she tried it on, I was like, 'That's it! You're gonna be a little girl from the 70's!'. And it was just perfect for her. So, after finding the dress, we just looked around the store, and yeah. Helen payed for the dress, (which was like, 3 bucks!!) and we went home.

I wanted to take my camera with me, so I had to IM Sina about it to give it to me, and then I had to walk over to her house, and I got it, etc. Then I rushed home, cause it was around like 5 o' clock, and we were leaving at 7. I was running up and down the stairs, rushing through everything. Lol. I felt like I needed to do everything in lightning speed, cause I thought I wouldn't have time to do my hair and makeup. And on top of that, I had to do Channa's makeup. So I felt the need to rush even MORE. But, in the end all went perfect, and everyone came out looking wonderful. Helen looked so darling, and Channa's makeup was pretty. And me, omg! Okay, well, I'm not gonna show a full body picture of myself, but here's what my makeup look like:

Not the best picture, but whatever. Haha. I wanted to see my nephews, so Helen called Dina to

come, but she didn't, so we left at like, around 7:30. Anyway, we went to North Long Beach to go

trick or treating. Trick or treating was just normal, but fun. Until we went to this one house, where

Helen freaking fell! She hurt herself bad, then she wanted to go home. She been wanting to go

home ever since we started going house to house, so she really wanted to go home now. Then we

told Linda we were done, and I think she kinda got mad at us, cause I guess she wanted us to keep

trick or treating. But, I was getting tired myself, and we ended up going to Subway afterward.

We ate, talked, shared candy, etc.

And that pretty much kinda wraps up my Halloween night. =) I know I left a lot of things out, but whatever,

I'm getting tired of typing. Haha.

Okay, toodles!

Halloween tomorrow!!

I feel bad that I don't really update this a lot anymore. But I'm doing it now, so it's all good. :D

Yesterday, I didn't go to school because I wanted to feel a lot better before returning to school. That day was fun. First, Linda took my mom and I to the doctors, and that went well, because it was so short. Usually it takes like, fucking 3 hours in total to get done. Then after that, we went to the store. We bought food, etc. And there was this white man there, just like, looking and touching everything. It was weird as hell. Oh, and did I mention that it's an Asian store? Lol. But anyway, I just bought a big orange Gatorade, and chips and Gatorade also for Helen. Then after that, we went to get gas, and I asked my mom if she wanted to come to Goodwill with us so I can find a good outfit for my costume. She said she had to go home and make pho, so I asked for money and she gave me only seven bucks. -_- Then me and Linda dropped my mom off at home and off we went to Goodwill.

We get there, and I start looking at the dresses first. None of them were clearly my size, so after browsing a few racks, I became somewhat bored, because I couldn't find anything for me. But I did find a few things that were good for Helen, but too bad she was at school that day. Then I was looking at the sweatshirt racks, and I found this 3XL sweater. Lol! The thing was HUGE, but then I told Linda I would just wear it off on what shoulder, and wear tights and what not. The shirt was $5.00, which means, if I buy it, I would have only 3 bucks left. And the shoes were definitely not 3 bucks. So, I decided to look for a belt instead. I found a great belt, and all of them were 3 bucks. The bad news is that, I couldn't get a belt AND my sweater, because I wouldn't have enough. So, I just ended up getting only the sweater.

When I got home, I didn't show my mom, cause she'd be like, 'WTF DID YOU BUY THIS FOR?!'. Lol. She wouldn't understand my costume unless I had it on all together. Anyway, so my sister Dina and the kids came over. Then Dina left to go get Frida. :) That day was fun. I was just a little sick.

When Frida came, my dad called and asked Linda to go pick up Helen, since he wouldn't be able to make it there. (Btw, this was all bullshit, cause after we picked up Helen, he came to pick up my mom and said there was work still left over. Anyway, bottom line, how the hell could there be leftover work if he was at work all day?! Or maybe he wasn't at work, and maybe secretly works part time at a gay strip club.... :D) So me, Frida, and Linda get to Helen's school and just waited until Helen came out. After that, we went to Ralph's to get me something to drink. Blah, blah, blah. We got home home and at pho. End of that day's story.

So today, is the day before Halloween. I know that story above was way back from Tuesday, but I got lazy and never finished the story. I feel bad that I don't update often anymore.

Anyway, I'm gonna be an 80's chick for Halloween. If that doesn't work out, I'll be a bum. :) Lol. I wanna see my mom's reaction to that. I don't know what Helen would be though. She hasn't told me.

And today was just a chill day.

Sorry, this blog is like, all scattered around, but whatever.

Okay, peace<3

*For sure there would be a blog on Sunday. (:

:D

I'm getting a lot better. I'm not as weak anymore. I hate having the cold. It's stupid. Ha. But anyway, I slept great last night. I watched Twilight, and I guess that put me to sleep. Cause I had a dream about it. :)

Yesterday, Dina, Helen and I went to Target in Bellflower and K-Mart. It was fun, but I wasn't feeling so good. I tried to ignore my sickness, but that didn't work very well.

Anyway, today we're going to Frida's house to watch Paranormal Activity! I'm excited. Everyone has been talking about it. Frida said that when she watched it, she hasn't slept until 10:30 in the morning! Lmao. Frida is FUNNAY. :]

Alrights, I have to get ready.

Bye. <3

He may be your father, but he sure ain't a dad.

Hi. Man, I know I haven't updated in a while. I've been really super sick for the past two days. It's the worse I've ever been sick. Like, today, I woke up at around 3 in the morning, and I swear, I think I was about to have a seizure. Well, I don't know if it exactly was, but it seemed like something was fucking with my mind. It felt like someone was shaking me violently and I couldn't really breathe, and I felt like throwing up. It was fucking scary. So, after that, I was scared to go back to bed, so I went online for like 2 hours, before going back to bed. And omg. My whole body aches like hell. I don't know if it was from working my ass off when I was swimming in PE, or if it was just the fever I had. But, especially my calves, lower back, and stomach area aches real bad. And whenever I walk, I get really, really dizzy, and I stumble. But, I got a little better, and hopefully I can go back to school on Monday.

Anyway,

So how is everyone? Life right now is chill, except that I feel like a zombie. I'm soo craving to go to a show. I don't know any bands on tour right now. I feel really bad about not seeing any of my favorite bands or artists while they are on tour, because to me, when you go to someone's concert, you're thanking them. For the wonderful music they brought to your life, and possibly even changing your life. Music is playing an extra huge role in my life right now, because I always feel better when I'm listening to a good tune. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I don't feel better if I'm talking to my best friend, or being with my sisters, but it's a different feeling. When I'm talking to Lyza or I'm with my sisters, I feel this warm feeling inside, but when I listen to music, it's this amazing feeling where I just close myself off from the world and focus on me and whoever I'm listening to. :)

Alrighty, new paragraph. Haha. I really want the iPod Touch. I asked my mom if I can get it, and she said maybe next month. She better not be lying! Hahaa. The price ain't that bad either. 200 bucks? That's a heck of a good price. Lol.

Okay, I'm gonna go. I'm getting lazy.

Bye. :]

Yesterday and today.

Hi. Sorry I didn't post anything up yesterday. I didn't really felt like it. But anyway, yesterday I swam for PE. It was fun. The only thing I hate about swimming in PE is, people looking at your toes, having to wear that dumbass swimming cap, and getting ready afterwards. But, other than that, it's fun. (:

And so, today, I didn't go to school, because honestly, I didn't feel like it. Plus, I had to finish my Biology project. That shit is stupid. Uggggggh.

I'm getting bored of just talking about my day. Haha. I'm gonna just talk about random things.

So, I'm gonna talk about music and shiz. (: MAN, I wish I was 50 years old. Cause, that way, I can live through the 70's and 80's, because those are my most favorite era of the 20th century. Everything was so incredible. Especially the music. It's so inspiring. Unlike today's shit music. Well, not ALL of them are shit, just a great amount of them are. It's so sad, like, whatever happened to good music? Like, where did all the good rock bands go? Or the artists? It's disappointing.

Okay, peace.

<3

Love is just a lie, made to make you blue.

Hi. Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I was lazy, and nothing really special has happened lately. I'm still not talking to my dad, and I don't plan to anytime soon. Simple as that.

Anyway, I have tons to do right now. English essay, Art project, Biology project story thing, get my swimming clothes ready, hang my clothes, clean up a little bit, etc. UGGH. I hate Sundays. Haha. Oh well.

So, new subject. I'm sooo into Joan Jett right now. She's fucking amazing. She's hot as hell, bad ass, can sing, and she used to be in The Runaways. How much better can she get?! Lol. It seems like as time goes on, I go back in time, in terms of music. I'm so bored with modern music. It's not like how it used to be. It's sad, but, I guess I have to live with it. Like, why can't rock music now be like how it was in the late 70's and 80's?! That's what frustrates me. Oh, especially when it comes to modern day pop music. It's terrible. Quite sad, too. WHAT HAPPENED TO MUSIC?! Ehh, whatever. Life goes on. Haha.

Man, I know I have something else to say, but I can't think of shit.

When I do, I'll write another blog.

Peace. <3

<3

Every time I feel everyone has their back on me,

I turn to my 'best friends' that I know will never turn me down.

Like, Joan Jett, Mariah Carey, The Runaways, My Chemical Romance, etc.

But, too bad they all live in my MP3.

:)

From rainy, to heat. Wtf?

Hi. So today, is like, normal. It was cold at first, and now it's hot as fuck. Talk about the weather being super bi polar. Lol. Like me. =) Anyway, today was free dress day, and I just wore something simple.

Blah, blah, blah, I'm getting boring.

BYE. :]

P.S. I just might have a crush on Joan Jett. (: She's so sexy, and I ain't a bi and/or lesbian.

Lmao.

Beautiful Disaster.

Hi. I'm sorry I didn't update yesterday. I had the most insane day ever. On my last blog, I talked about my second bus not coming, so I had to stay home, then, okay, long story short, my dumbass fucking 'dad' came home a dick, and now everyone believes he belongs in a mental institution. All I have to say about this monster, is that, you're completely wrong about everything, and just because you're the only man in the family at the moment, doesn't make you king, and NO ONE fucking bows to your feet. Seriously, grow the fuck up already, old man.

I'm sick of him. I can't bear to look at him anymore either. That's why I'm gonna walk to the bus stop every morning now. UGH. Then, that tragedy, believe it or not, brought out one of the best things I could ever ask for. I totally felt so close to my mom after her and I had a talk. We were crying together, and at that moment, I was so thankful to have her. It made me realize how much MORE I should begin to cherish her. I love my mom so much<3

And then, there's another special lady that totally uplifted my night. Lyza. Even though I wasn't talking to her on the phone, and it was just on AIM, I totally felt the sincerity coming through her. She opened up my eyes, made me escape the horror, and somehow, went through my head and made me look at the beautiful side of situations, and life. :) I love you so much. You're not a friend, you're a SISTER. The kind of sister that, in certain situations, I need more than anything. I honestly, and truthfully thank you from the bottom of my heart for being my back bone through every situation.

<3

That day made me see the beautiful side of the bad things. And I will try to continue to think that way for whatever situations life throws at me.

And that's why everything, for surely, happens for a reason.

:)

Like, OMJ! =)

Hi. I know I didn't update it like, yesterday, but yesterday was just a normal day. We were swimming in PE that day, and I didn't swim, cause my finger is still injured. But anyway, yup. Nothing really new, except there's this new chick that's Christina's friend. I think her name is JC. I don't know. Haha. But, she's fucking weird. Since we hang out with Christina, and JC sometimes hangs out with Christina, she 'hangs out' with us too. Lol. I used 'hangs out' like so many times. Anyway, I don't like it when she's with us. She has this like, humongous backpack and she's just so... so.... I don't know, awkward? Haha. Not to be mean or anything, but you know. I know you've experienced it before! When there's a new chick that's a friend of someone you hang out with, and you just thought they were so weird. But yeah. She's a freshman, and our motto in our group is, 'If you don't fit us, get out!'. Lmao. At least in my head it is. (:

Okay, today, I stayed home cause, when my dad dropped me off at the bus stop, the first bus came, and I didn't get on that one, cause it was full, so I decided to just wait for the second one. 30 MINUTES LATER, I realized it wasn't coming, so I had to walk home, and tell my parents. My dad suggested to take me to school, but I haven't studied for the big test tomorrow, so I decided to just stay home and study. Turns out, it's not really a good idea to put a laptop or computer in the same room as me, cause I will definitely get distracted, cause here I am, blogging, and MySpacing, while I'm supposed to be studying. Lol. Whatever. I'm gonna study later.

Jeez, I'm so excited for The Runaways movie coming out next year. I know I mention it like, 2349203509854 times, but I can't help it!! The Runaways is an AMAZING band, and I am so thankful I discovered it. Their music brings out the kinda 'rebellious' side to me. LOL! I know, wtf, right? Haha. But listening to them makes me feel like a teenager. Well, I am, but like, a TRUE teenager, you know? It's just awesome. They're already one of my top favorite bands, and I've listened to them for such a short amount of time. That really says something. I'm usually really picky with music I listen to, that's why I only listen to a certain amount of bands, and theirs just completely captivated me. Every time I think about their breakup, it makes me sad, cause I just want them to continue to be the amazing all girls band that they used to be in the 70's. But, Sandy West passed away, so it won't really be the same. Okay, I'm gonna stop now. Hahah. It's making me sad. :(

I'll probably, but not really likely, be blogging again tonight.

Bye. <3

Confrontation/2012/The Runaways movie.

Hi. I know I didn't blog last night, but whatever. I was sorta busy and wasn't in the mood to blog.

Yummy yummy pickles.

Hi. Man, my fucking pinky is so swollen and it's purple.

I'm gonna finish this tomorrow.

I'm going to bed.

Good night<3

P.S. I seriously can't wait till' The Runaways come out. I'm pissing myself with excitement!!!!!!!!

Home early/Update from yesterday.

Hi. I know I didn't blog yesterday, but it was because I was on my computer, the one in my room, and that one is so fucking slow, I didn't even bother to go on other websites beside School Loop and MySpace, of course. ;) But yeah, yesterday was a whatever day. I stayed in my room all day, cause I'm still not talk to Helen. I may be immature at times, but whatever. I don't care what you think. Anyway, all my grades were on School Loop, and I got 3 A's, 1 B, 1, C+ and an F. I have an F in Algebra because I failed the test. I have to raise it up. And I have to get my C+ in History to at least a B, cause I'm missing a few HWs. So yeah, that was yesterday.

Today, however, was freaking awesome until PE. I was sitting on the floor, with my arms behind my back, because I was just done doing this exercising thing. My arms were supporting me from the back, you know? Okay, then this fucking fatass, hideous ogre guy behind me, like, I guess he was laying down or something, and as he got up, his fucking foot kicked my pinky, cause my hands were next to his ugly feet. Then, that's when the pain struck me. It hurt like fuck! And I'm like, 'Wtf is that pain?', then I look at my pinky on my left arm, and it's bright red, and the bone looked misplaced. I was freaking out, cause not only did it hurt like hell, but it didn't look right. Then I was like, 'Man! You totally fucked up my pinky!'. Then he's like, 'Oh sorry', like a fucking retard. How rude and classless. I at least though he would sincerely apologize to me, and checked to see if I was okay, but NO. His uglyass just turned around and acted like nothing happened. I was soo pissed, I really wanted to cry, not only cause of this fucking dick, but it hurted so bad. I think it's broken, cause the bone looks misplaced. Then my teacher sent me to the nurse, and the nurse was nice to me. Other times she's just a bitch. Lol. But anyway, then I got sent home at lunch, and my dad came to pick me up at around 11:10ish. Then we went to Food 4 Less where my dad bought me this finger thingy, for broken fingers. Lol. It looks so funny! It's all like huge on my pinky. Hahahaha.

So, after writing that paragraph, my dad called me to go to the doctors, and I did, and guess what? We get there at like, 1, and it didn't open till' 2:00. -_- We were an hour early. So, I came back home, and I'm continuing to blog. :)

Anyway, back to the story. My pinky hurt soo bad! It's swollen too. And you know what else is bad? We swim on Monday. -_- UGGGGGGGGGGGGH. I hate PE.

Okay, ttyl. I'll probably write another blog later, cause I know there was a few things I was missing.

Bye<3

We're the Queens of Noise.

Hi. Today was a goood day. (: It was fun. But Daniel didn't come to school today. It's okay, though. Cause I see him tomorrow! Haha. PE was crazy, I did so many pushups, I was scared for my life, cause my teacher kept watching us to see if we were doing it right. Lol. But in the end, I got it. And yeeeeah.

Okay, so when I got home, I had a nice time by myself. I was singing loud and having fun, until the ugly Ogre came home. (Helen). Bitch is such a drama queen. Well, I guess it's cause she finally started her period. But yeah, she got soooooo freaking mad at me cause I ate all the chips. HOW DUMB IS THAT?! What a retard. She act like she haven't ate all month or something. I'm like, 'Bitch, you can survive off your fat for now.' Plus, we had other food, and she was making a huge fucking deal. Omfg. So dumb. So I got mad too, and went upstairs and sang my heart out. :D

Anyway, I'm so into The Runaways lately. They're an amazing band. They truly are. Maybe I'm obsessing over them now, because I've been basically listening to the same kind of music, over and over, and over. I needed something new, and thank god I stumbled upon the song 'Cherry Bomb'. That song is so catchy, so young, and has so much energy to it. Considering it was a 70's song, it surprises me. Lol. Anyway, yeah. I'm sooooooooooooooooooo FUCKING EXCITED FOR THE MOVIE!!!! Too bad it doesn't come out till' next year. Haha.

Here's a new picture I found:

The blonde one is Cherie Currie (played by Dakota Fanning),

The one with black hair wearing a red shirt and leather pants is Joan Jett (Kristen Stewart),

And the one with long red hair is Lita Ford (Scout Taylor-Compton)

The other two are Sandy West and Robin. :)

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPP!

I'm sooo excited. (:

Okay, I'm gonna go do HW now.

Good night<3

Hey, look! It's a full moon. :D

Hi. So, I was supposed to update this last night, but I came home late, and had to do my homework, and I was busy. So I'm gonna update that on this blog, and about my day today too. Alright. So, yesterday, Frida came to my house at like nine in the morning to pick up Kaylyn. Then later on in the day, I went to the mall with my sisters and George. It was really fun. We went to the Dollar Bookstore, and I bought 2 romantic books. I'm very eager to read them. Anyway, while we were on our way to Target, we saw the thing to sign up to win a five thousand dollar shopping spree, and Linda and George found a phone there. The phone's background has an old man that looks like a detective. LOL! It was sooo funny. So yeah, we get to Target, but Dina didn't really find anything she wanted. She then decided she wanted to look for anklets and then we went to the mall to go to the store Icing, and Amuse. Afterwards we went to get a bite, and the fucking Food Court at Lakewood Mall was hella crowded! We had to circle the whole place to find a table. And finally we found a table outside. Blah, blah, blah. Fast forward to when we went to Frida's house. Omg! That was sooo fun! I became suddenly hyper all of a sudden. Hahaha. I completely made a fool out of myself, but that's alrighty. :D

Okay, so today, school was pretty chill. I missed Daniel. I was happy to see him during Nutrition. It was fantastic. (: But yeeah. When I came home, Frida came over with Kaylyn. Then we went to Lisa's house, and came over again. That's where I'm writing this blog. Lol. I'm not home right now, although I need to get home and do my history HW. But whatevs. I think I can do it real quick before I go to bed. Alrighty, I don't really know what else to say, so goodbye for now.

<3

Just a quick post.....

OMFG! I can't wait till' the movie The Runaways is gonna be in theaters!!! Like, seriously. It's gonna be some kick ass, all-girls band AWESOME-TASTIC-NESS. :D

I'm soo excited! Kristen Stewart will be playing Joan Jett, and Dakota Fanning will be playing Cherie Currie, and I don't know the other girls who's gonna be playing Lita Ford, Sandy West and Jackie Fox.

Here's a picture of Kristen Stewart as Joan Jett:

Isn't that like, the most awesomest thing EVER?! Kristen is perfect
for the role. And Dakota Fanning looks

just like Cherie Currie too! Here's a picture:

She looks just like Cherie herself. It's crazy.

I'm soooo freaking EXCITED for this movie. (:

Okay, I'm gonna go shower now.

New blog up tonight. <3

Mama Weer All Crazee Now.

What a night! My day started off okay, but then at night, my nephews and niece came. Golly she's such a handful. She's so spoiled, and when she doesn't get her way, she gets real bratty and starts crying. I don't want a girl when I grow up. Little girls are just too spoiled. Haha. Well, not all. My niece just makes it look like it is.

Anyway, when my mom came home, my sister Dina pointed out that my mom looks young, and so we started complimenting her and what not. Then my dad came downstairs, looking kinda pissed or something, and I guess he got jealous that we were complimenting my mom. LOL! Who does that? I think it's pretty fucking ridiculous and childish. But funny.

I slept for 4 hours today in the afternoon, but now I'm still tired. It's only 11:37, and I still feel tired. I can't wait till' Frida come to pick Kaylyn back up, cause she's been crying. But now, after rocking to The Runaways with me, she's tired and is now asleep. :) I need to pee, but I don't wanna get up, cause I might wake her up.

Anyway, do you guys believe that the world will end on December 21, 2012? I saw the preview for the '2012' movie and it scared the living life out of me. :/

Okay, I'm gonna go to bed. It's late.

Good night<3

Happy Birthday, Mommy! <333

'Hello, daddy, hello mom, I'm your ch-ch-ch-ch CHERRY BOMB!'. Hahaha. I love that song!

Anyway, hi! Today is a chill day. I liked it. But the only thing bad was when I went to PE, I realized I left my PE shorts in the car, and I had to go to OCS. I didn't get to see Daniel much. :/ I miss him. I wish he was mine. I wish he see me the way I see him. Oh jeez, okay, I'm getting a little too emotional. Lol.

Anyway, today is my mom's birthday!! She's turning 50. :O She's getting old. It's crazy. But, I don't think she looks her age. But yeah, I'm gonna make her something. (:

But yeah, I had a dream today, and I won't mention it, cause it's just too insane to even talk about. But all I will say is that, the moment I opened my eyes, tears came out, and I couldn't stop crying. That's how extreme it was.

Alright, I have nothing else to talk about.

Peace. <3